I took a lot of pictures this weekend between the Funtoberfest 5K and Olivia's first homecoming.
I found myself behind a lens most of the day.
Looking back through all of my pictures, I found some to be clear and beautiful while others were blurry and not-so-great.
I had to take a lot of pictures to end up with some I love.
Sometimes life is a lot like a photo shoot.
It takes a lot of living to end up with some great moments, because mixed in with all of the beautiful memories are some fairly blurry, not-so-pretty events.
I've discovered that the memories that turn out not so great for me are the ones where my focus isn't where it should be.
I hate that about myself.
My mind is a lot like a ping-pong game with the ping-pong ball sometimes bouncing around so rapidly in my head that it hurts!
I want to fix my lens on Him.
I want to look up and not around.
I want to speak with truth and love.
I want to be Him to a hurting world.
And somehow in the midst of what I want is the reality of who I am.
An insecure, off-balance, deeply-needy, often-frazzled human being who craves friendship, acceptance, affirmation, and love.
When I find myself slipping into the mode of thinking, "Am I pleasing so-and-so?" I quickly spiral into someone who is not pleasing God.
So, it's Monday and I have a decision to make.
Am I going to walk into today pleasing Him or pleasing others.
My prayer is that I can stay focused on Him.
I believe that if I can do this, then everything else will become clear and beautiful.
I want to see the world through His eyes.
I want to please Him.
Praying your day is filled with beautiful memories, clearly focused on the One Who loves you most.